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9 things for May 31st

We love our new home. God has truly provided for us, and we are very thankful. Our friends have been wonderful and came through for us in so, so many ways.

I’m not sure how I feel about not being a pastor anymore. On the one hand, I have a lot of trauma recovery to do and sometimes I just need a moment to sit and stare. But on the other hand, there aren’t a lot of people who know what the gospel is and it burns in me. I wish I knew how to tell everyone.

But there is no taste for it anymore. People want to hear about how other people are ruining the country, how to live so that you aren’t like other people, and how it would be if our kind of people were in charge. None of that is the gospel. But that doesn’t seem to matter to the church anymore.

When we bought our house, the previous owners left a vintage component stereo system hooked up in the garage. It appears to be from the late 60s or early 70s. It is complete with the huge, plywood encased speakers. The sound is like nothing I have heard for the last 30 years. Fabulous.

I’m tired. I read somewhere that the hardest trauma to recover from is face-to-face irrational hate. This describes so much of what we have endured. Recovery might take some time. I’m not sure where to begin.

But our home is beautiful, and I am surrounded with love. The Shepherd has me in a tight embrace of love. That is a lot and I am confident that there will be healing in our future.

Here is an interesting fact about the city we have moved to: there is a railway bridge over one of the main roads. The clearance is pretty low. The trucks won’t change their route, and the railroad won’t change their bridge. So two or three times a month, a truck gets stuck under the bridge. Reality has a tendency to stubbornly refuse to change based upon the desires or beliefs of truck companies or railroads.

But even when a truck is stuck for pretending that reality is different than it is, the community responds with kindness, and helps wherever they can. There is a lesson there somewhere.

I have gotten myself stuck so many times trying to pretend that reality is different than it is. I am trying not to do that anymore. I am me, and there are certain types of people who will hate me and try to get as many people as they can to hate me as well. But I will still wash feet. Still follow my Shepherd; still love my wife; still proclaim peace to people that you probably don’t like, and still eat with sinners. I am just going to try to not let the hatred of others get to me so much. Life is too short.

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…and you will be my people

The book of Exodus is about how God redeems his people from bondage in order to dwell with them. There are a lot of images and types that point to Christ.

He is our Passover lamb; he is our high priest; he is the atoning sacrifice; he is the tabernacle of God. In him dwells all the fullness of the godhead bodily – and so on.

If you miss Christ in the book of Exodus, then you simply have a weird god who demands weird things and makes people jump through hoops for no good reason. Throw in some frogs and locusts, and you have a pretty strange book of quaint and bizarre traditions.

But when Christ gives us light, the book opens up and we see wonderful things.

On this day of Pentecost, I would like to point out one of the beautiful themes of Exodus.

In the book, God redeems his people from Egypt. But they rebel against him. It is his purpose to dwell with his people and be their God, but he is a holy God and cannot dwell with sinful, rebellious humans.

If that were the end of it, it would be a pretty sad book. God would have brought them into the wilderness and then killed them for rebelling against him.

But God is love, as well as holy. He desires to dwell with his people in harmony and restore fallen creation. So he gives Moses instructions on building a large tent.

In that tent would be the “most holy place”, which would symbolize the throne room of God, the dwelling place of the most high between the Cherubim, where God lives with his people, just as he did in Eden.

But it would be hidden by a veil and accessed only by the high priest, and only once a year.

But before the high priest could enter the holy place representing the people, he had to sanctify himself. He had to make himself “holy”. He would sprinkle his garments, sprinkle himself, offer a sacrifice, wear the right garments.

THEN he could take the blood of the sacrifice into the Most Holy Place. And when that blood was sprinkled on the mercy seat, God would “descend” and fill the tabernacle, dwelling again with his people.

The book of Exodus ends with the High Priest finishing his work and the pillar of cloud and pillar of fire descending on the Most Holy Place.

34 Then the cloud covered the tabernacle of meeting, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle. 35 And Moses was not able to enter the tabernacle of meeting, because the cloud rested above it, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle. Ex 40:34–35.

But all of this was a picture to point us to Christ and illustrate his work.

Before Jesus went to the cross, he sanctified himself as the High Priest.

And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they also may be sanctified by the truth. Jn 17:19.

He offered his own blood on the altar of the cross and ascended into heaven, bringing the blood of the atoning sacrifice into the throne room of God.

12 Not with the blood of goats and calves, but with His own blood He entered the Most Holy Place once for all, having obtained eternal redemption. Heb 9:12

And when he took the blood into heaven, he received the promise of the Father – a people called by His Name, where he would dwell with them and be their God, and they would be his people.

This is what is happening in Acts 2. Jesus ascended to God and the pillar of fire and cloud filled the tabernacle. Only this time, the tabernacle is the people of God, not a building.

5 you also, as living stones, are being built up a spiritual house, a holy priesthood, to offer up spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. 1 Pet 2:5.

Now, this tabernacle isn’t mediated by men. The Holy Spirit is poured out on men and women, young men and maidens, children, old and young. All who are Christ’s. All who have come to the living Stone are his temple, filled with his presence.

Exodus is fulfilled at Pentecost.

Wonderful, isn’t it? You are the living temple of God because of the sacrifice and sprinkling of blood by our Great High Priest, Jesus.

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What if they knew what I was really like?

It is the ultimate in imposter syndrome. What if my true nature was exposed to the world? What if I stood before everyone like the Emperor without any clothes?

Have you ever worried about exposure? What if the most shameful acts were exposed to the world? What if your darkest fantasies were displayed on a movie screen for all to see?

And lets keep going. Do you ever just hope that you are “good enough” to stand before God after your death?

And you quickly try to put it out of your mind because there is a part of you deep inside that tells you that there is no way God will accept you.

What if you could have a do-over? If you could live your life again and avoid all of the shame and misery and guilt, how great would that be!

Or Perhaps you could live again and do over all of those times you didn’t act in love or in kindness, where the cruelty of your heart broke through the carefully constructed wall around your soul and wounded the ones you love the most.

But there is a part of you that is afraid that you would simply do the same things and act the same way.

But what if you could have a perfect record, as if you never had nor committed any sin?

If you have never been told that Jesus offers you his own righteousness, then shame on the preachers you have been listening to your whole life.

The fact is that the Christianity is not “do better, and God might accept you.”

It is greater than forgiveness; it is “as if you have never committed nor had any sin”.

That is beyond pardon, beyond forgiveness, beyond God just looking the other way.

It is God looking right at you and seeing his begotten Son, in whom he is well-pleased.
It isn’t tolerance. It is embrace.

In Jesus, you are embraced, welcomed, loved, protected, fed, and a part of something far, far beyond yourself.

If only you accept it with a believing heart. This is the call of the gospel. That is what good news really is.

It isn’t “be a better person.” And it isn’t that God is somehow not holy enough to notice your sins.

It upholds God’s holiness and God’s mercy all at once.

You stand before him in a righteousness that isn’t your own, but the work of another.

As the Heidelberg puts it:

60. How are you righteous before God?

Only by true faith in Jesus Christ: that is, although my conscience accuses me, that I have grievously sinned against all the commandments of God, and have never kept any of them, and am still prone always to all evil; yet God, without any merit of mine, of mere grace, grants and imputes to me the perfect satisfaction, righteousness, and holiness of Christ, as if I had never committed nor had any sins, and had myself accomplished all the obedience which Christ has fulfilled for me; if only I accept such benefit with a believing heart.

There is no “yeah, but…” to that at all.

 

 

 

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